I brought this upon myself

You know what is the hardest, is to sit there and here the cold hard truth that all along it’s you. It has ALWAYS been your fault.

You brought this upon yourself because you didn’t voice out. You brought this upon yourself because you didn’t have the courage. You brought this upon yourself because you let your fear rule your rationality.

I brought this upon myself.

If only – I could ever forgive myself.

No I am not ok but I will show everyone I am ok. That I am ok, and all is fine. That’s the irony, ah, always has been… isn’t it? Actually the question is – can I ever say I am never ok and that I am human, that I feel sad and every other emotions too? Or I should be a Robot?